WOOT i won my first tennis varsity game today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was soooo nervous. my first time playing an actual game. awsomeness. well thats it.and tomorrow, i won't be at school cus i'm gonna play in a JV tournament. YAY. i'm playing varsity and JV. i'm happy, i get to play NOW woot. ciao

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woot i got my permit yesterday!!!! man..i'm so lucky, i didn't really study the book!!. lol. peace out

today was the worst best day ever lol.

oxymoron!!

anyways 1st period, tennis of course. played tennis then at the end coach wanted to see where i was tennis wise. so he did like this small little try out session, my god i was so nervous. plus he remembered my name somehow. after that he was like your prety good and blah and told me about tournament but someone told me we had to be invited to go to the tournament but he said no. something. and um that i can play varsity 9th..i have no idea what that meant but w/e as long as i get to play and travel.

and the rest just went down the drain. and i don't wanna talk about it.

MY grandpa grandfather grand pop AKIRA passed away.

last night

i have no idea how you'd call your grandfather. i don't know, didn't know him. i don't know any of my grandparents. but it sure does hurt so damn much. I'm jealous of all of you that have family reunions, family that visits you and shit like that. KNOW your cousins. and some of you don't like it. i wish i could visit my family, damn i wish they could come over every holiday. but i can't. w/e.

my dad didn't tell me..and that hurts alot more. he didn't cry..it's like he doesn't care. man, i wonder what he'd do if i died. not care at all??? just forgot about it. not tell anyone.

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i think i know what i want to study to become.

i either want to become a

forensic entomologist

or

coroner.

But really my goal if i can is to become pro at a sport

any sport..i'm aiming for tennis now. i don't have any chances in volleyball, atleast i think so. i mean come on, i'm short, and i was watching college vball, those girls were TALL. lol so idk what i'm gonna do.

but i'm also getting into skateboarding! i love it. after school i always skateboard, after a long stressful day, skateboarding is like my therapy kinda lol. it makes me feel so good. ha.

i don't know how to snowboard but after reading this magazine i really want to try it. and after skateboarding i think i can do it fo reals =p

i was talking to my dad about what he thinks i should be, he said "i think that whatever you do, you'd be the best at it" i almost cried cus he has never told me anything like that. yeah well thats all. PEACE!!!

Woot!! came back from CaliFORNIA It was sooooo awsome, even tho my pop wouldn't let me do anything...dangerous. dangerous as in anything like bungee jumping or riding a motocross.

ate sushi like everyday.

we were supposed to go to disneyland!!! but it was sold out!

instead we went to some amusement park. called knotts farm i think

went to universal studio.

met van helsing!! HE WAS SOOOO HOT! took a pic with him i'll post it later.

my fav. theme was van helsing. my first haunted house i went to.

it was absolutely 100 percent fun!!

i bought this really cool skateboard. its special.

what i mean by special is it only has 2 wheels total.

my pop said i couldnt ride it, but guess what after 5 minutes of practicing, and running into a PARKED car with it, i could.

ooo i ate crab!! it was pretty good, bought 2 hammers to open the crab.

i started juggling the hammers and one fell on my nose, now i have a bruise!!

I REALLLLLY LOVED CALIFORNIA!!

thats why after highschool, hopefully we move there..or atleast i go to college there! hopefully UCLA!!! but then again i don't care, just want to get out of houston.

i really hate it when people say i can't do shit.

When i've never even tried it b4!! just give me a damn chance and i promise i can do it! ANYTHING

i know someone that brags about, being in varsity in some sport and other stuff. and hmm..she's been playing that sport for maybe all her life right? and they think they're good.

hearing stuff like that makes me better, i mean i've only been playing tennisfor 1 year? not even one year and look i could possiblly make varisity and i will do whatever i can to get in varsity THIS YEAR. i have never played softball just in P.E. but cmon it's P.e. and i made the team last year.

it's a challenge in my perspection. its a goal. a goal to beat and try to be better then those who are "the best". to try new things.

anyways i'll post pics later. here or on myspace. or both.

want to learn something new about me? well i don't know if to you i seem like a shy adorable hm...uhh nice gal, but around elementary i used to be a bully. after all it was alief, you had to be tough at times. i've only gotten caught fighting twice. 1 was between a boy, and the other a girl. I've changed so much but sometimes i feel like just bursting out. especially when someones talking shit, and you know thats all they can do, is talk. THEY can't even hurt an insect lol. thats what pisses me off. me? i can't really talk shit lol cus i tend to studder or have to think to much about it haha. but trust me i can defend myself physically. SOOOOO anyone up for a fight??? i have the urge to beat the crap outta someone anyone...